Speaking of not so long ago, I used to be this impractical, angry, crazy female who just spoke her heart out in front of anybody.
Insane anger still happens to be my biggest vice but still I have managed to control it till some level. Still whenever I get angry I just go on blabbering things without thinking about the consequences. I hate it when I am angry and especially when I hurt someone I really care about. After all the screaming and yelling happens on an innocent (or not so innocent) soul I start realizing what I did and more than that what I should not have done.
God please take this crazy habit away from me () please please please!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
My dream is to...
I actually don't know what my dream is. I just know I'm not very happy or content doing what I do right now.
I'm not saying I'm sad but I want to do something that I could enjoy more.
I really admire people who can get out of their confort zones and pursue things they actually have interest in, things they actually care about.
I wish to be one of them!
I'm not saying I'm sad but I want to do something that I could enjoy more.
I really admire people who can get out of their confort zones and pursue things they actually have interest in, things they actually care about.
I wish to be one of them!
While my guitar gently weeps...
I was listening to this simple yet beautiful song by The Beatles and I don't know why, it just somehow reminded me of how much I miss writing.
Damn naivete-veteran, I miss you so much :(
Damn naivete-veteran, I miss you so much :(
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Greed
As humans it is our tendency to be greedy. Personally speaking I always keep praying to God for one thing and promising him that if I get it, I will never ask him for anything else. But as a human, I just can't help it.
There was one thing for a long time that I wanted really really badly and I kept praying to God for it (and telling him that if he gave it to me, I will never ever ask for anything from him ever again), then I got angry with God and stopped asking for it but still in a teeny tiny corner of my heart I always kept wanting it.
One day suddenly when I was least expecting it, that thing came walking to me. That was probably the happiest day of my life. I even told God Thank you and told him I will keep my promise and never ask for anything more from him. Now being a human I want more. I want the thing to stay with me and be mine forever and ever but there are certain hurdles in its way.
Now I want to pray to God and ask him to make those hurdles move out of the way and make my life smooth and peaceful, but I don't know how to do that.
I wish I don't have to tell God out loud what I want, I hope he just lingers in my heart and finds it out on his own.
Greedy me... :)
There was one thing for a long time that I wanted really really badly and I kept praying to God for it (and telling him that if he gave it to me, I will never ever ask for anything from him ever again), then I got angry with God and stopped asking for it but still in a teeny tiny corner of my heart I always kept wanting it.
One day suddenly when I was least expecting it, that thing came walking to me. That was probably the happiest day of my life. I even told God Thank you and told him I will keep my promise and never ask for anything more from him. Now being a human I want more. I want the thing to stay with me and be mine forever and ever but there are certain hurdles in its way.
Now I want to pray to God and ask him to make those hurdles move out of the way and make my life smooth and peaceful, but I don't know how to do that.
I wish I don't have to tell God out loud what I want, I hope he just lingers in my heart and finds it out on his own.
Greedy me... :)
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