In Dilemma

Its human nature to find out negativity in an absolutely positive situation.
After a very long time everything is going just perfect in my life but my mind just can't stop worrying.
There are so many uncertainties still. So many whens, wheres and hows to be answered!

I hate myself for being so pessimistic even after being given so many re-assurances :(
I just can't help it. I'll relax only after things fall in place.
I'm sorry 'U' for making your and my life so difficult.

Are we moving forward or backwards?

Its such a relief to have IPL on TV these days. It gives me a break from all the rona dhona, shadi, god-bharai, karwa chauth and gangor pujas that are shown in the TV serials that air these days.
Its true that the Saas-Bahu era was irritating and we literally celebrated the day the last show that had the same concept ended but the too much social message spreading era is even worse.
I really miss the old Doordarshan TV shows like Vyomkesh Bakshi, Circus, Talash, Fauji or even the new-age shows like Banegi apni baat, Tara and Swabhiman.
All I see on TV these days is people crying over a child marriage or caste system or some avatar of some Goddess being born in a poor family.
Why can't we have more sitcoms like Dekh bhai dekh and Sarabhai vs Sarabhai?
Or intellectual shows like Bharat ek khoj and Surabhi?

The Indian television really needs another makeover now.

Just when I thought it could never happen to me again...

This one is for you... You know who you are :)


You've made me forget all the bad things that have happened to me in the last few years.
You've made me look forward to the future again.
You've made me feel wanted.
You've made me feel needed.
You've made me realize that what I was looking for was just an image, just a perception.
You've made me want to watch Romantic comedies again. :P

You've made me happy :) and most importantly...
You've made me fall in love all over again.

Conflict

It's one of those times when your heart and your mind want completely opposite things. If you do what your former wants you to do you end up regretting later on and following the latter makes you cry all the time.

Why did life get so difficult? And since when?

I really had to write right now. This is the most helpless I have ever felt in my life. My two best friends are in the biggest trouble and they need their friends' support but I'm not there with them.
I have this whole new respect for the both of them.
May god bless them ,protect them and give them all the strength they need. This is just to let them know that I'm praying for them (the most I can d0).

Freak?

I don't even remember when exactly did I become such a film fanatic. This question arose in my mind when I was talking to a sweet guy who was not so much into films and it just struck me.
Now my "filmy malaria" has reached such a level that its impossible to connect to anyone who is not as interested in movies as I am. Most of the conversations that I have with the people who I am close to are about or in relevance to movies.

Am I a freak? And... Will "the one" be it too? *thinking with index finger on the temple*

Chimera?

Sometimes life forces you to forget what you thought was the most beautiful moment you have ever lived.
Well can't blame it, I should have pinched myself after it happened.
But now I'm not sure weather to call it a good dream or a bad one.